Tuesday, June 12, 2012
Ready for a fight, and aiming to lose. . . .
The problem is that trying to be that way, I went to the opposite extreme. Where if anything was wrong, I ignored it, especially if it presented a challenge in "Being Positive". If someone was habitually rude, depressed, or negative, I stayed away from them. I still loved/love them, I just reasoned that I couldn't be pulled back into that black hole. If a problem seemed overwhelming, I avoided it.
And hence, the introduction of one of my most noticable problems, my weight. All through school, I was a skinny kid. And even into my early twenties, because I walked several miles every day, I stayed in shape. But here I am, over thirty, and now I weigh 250 pounds. Now some people, particularly people larger than me scoff at my weight issue. What they don't realize (or don't care to know) is that I have difficulty doing things that when I was younger, and more in shape, I did with ease. And now it has come to the point that it is unacceptable to me.
I have difficulty getting up in the morning, like I have to push myself up off the day like a pregnant woman. Sometimes to get up, I have to rock my body into a sitting up position. I hate bending over even to tie my shoes, so I usually wear flip flops. I have gone from wearing medium t-shirts and 32 waist pants to extra large shirts and 40 waist pants. And I am tired. And I am tired of being tired. After years of walking miles a day, now I hate walking a half mile from my home to the main street near my house.
And so, I'm done. I'm done making excuses. I'm ready to fight. And lose. Lots of weight. So I've started: Drinking only water and milk. Tracking my food intake. Walking daily. And joining my wife on Spark People. Stay tuned as I work to lose 30 to 50 pounds by October. And I believe in myself to attain this goal, and please help me keep motivated.